Grey Skies

As I sit at my favorite little coffee joint in Venice,Imogen Heap wafts through the ominous air of the Saturday greyness that exists beyond these doors of this eclectic artist hangout with ridiculously tasty treats.Today the weather is really affecting me. I seem to handle one or two days of greyness, especially if my boyfriend is around, otherwise it depresses me,which explains why London is not my favorite place to live. There seems to be a lot of sadness in Venice. I love people watching and as an actress I like to observe people's little idiosyncratic behaviors. I am fascinated by little actions and what motivates them. I was watching this guy bolt across the street yesterday as I sat in my car gearing up for my run along the Venice promenade. So there I was looking at him trying to find a tree, as he desperately needed to take a leak,or so I thought.I quickly realized it wasn't a leak he wanted and I saw him pull out a needle thinking he was incognito behind this tree,....there I was, virginal eyes on him as he filled his body with this euphoric and deadly substance.He went into a trance almost immediately as he started swaying like a willow tree and for that very moment he had found salvation from his painful, troubled life. An escape from his reality. I have heard you are in such a warm,fuzzy, peaceful place,when u take heroin. I am glad to have never experimented with that as it's a one way path to hell.  Just like the allegorical tale of the song Hotel California which is about his love affair with heroin, I choose to have a love affair with reality.No matter how hard real life appears to be sometimes,when you come off the artificial high,reality is always knocking on your door and sooner or later you will have to face it.....

Dreams come true....

wooosshhhhhhhooooooooooo.... that's exactly what I've been caught up in these past few months and my excuse for not writing. My hurricane of this thing called life. A life that is filled with so much juiciness  and excitement that I am a water vase spilled over with gratitude as I see the flowers blossom before my very own eyes.I know how lucky I am to be living the "American dream".There is so much suffering right now in the world and I feel incredibly blessed. I can't believe September is here to greet me and the Californian summer is almost over.I tried to cram some sunshine in yesterday before it dissipates completely and I'm finding this chair is not the most comfortable as my ass is burnt from too much sunlovin yesterday. How time has flown and so many things buzzing through the air. A new love in my life, which always seems to make one's world spin in many directions.Speaking of which my passionate love for acting is finally materializing into something very positive when recently I was signed by Untitled Entertainment and I know I am in incredible hands now. The rest is up to me.... stay tuned in for the developments in this arena.Due to the current climate, which has affected all of us,work seems to be scarce.So I'm beyond excited to get going and book my first film or TV series over here. That would be a dream come true. I believe that anything can happen to you if you truly believe that you are worthy of whatever it is that you desire. Own it. You create you're own destiny,no amount of Voodoo or Hocus Pocus will bring you happiness. Neither will a big bank balance or a fancy fucking car.You have all the power and the seed is planted with just one thought. A thought that you are truly grateful for what you have in your life in this very moment. The power of a positive thought brings your entire energy field into harmony as well as helping another takes you out of self absorbed bullshit.I'm a huge believer in a wholefood diet and tons of exercise,yoga being an absolute favorite,and I believe in my experience these two things are imperative in bringing one's spirit into equilibrium but no amount of wheatgrass or superfood can create that happiness. I do that on my own.
Peace and Love from San Clemente California. 

Alive

I am home...

A weekend at a tonic bar. Vincent Gallo serving up spiritual Speed Balls. A man named Truth, and delicious drinks of Dragons blood, Deer Antler and Holy basil alike. An incredible glowing angel, Bethanne, and A Chinese man on a vow of silence for 13 years serving me medicinal mushrooms and raw food fit for a queen. A week goes past and I continue my search for these potions that left me smiling and gleaming with an inexpressible inner peace, clarity of mind and a flow of energy or CHI that I haven't felt since I was... possibly 12 or since the days I used to swing from tree to tree in my garden of Eden in South Africa with flowers in my hair and not a care in the world! I feel like I am home here in La and on a mission to feel this elated always and share the love with other beings who want to enter this new realm of virtuous liberation. I need to pinch myself constantly as I ponder whether this is actually real? And reflect on the reflectively twinkling eyes and smiles that I see within this reality. Could this be my incredible life? Could I have found real truth and invincibility in potions and elixirs that create this enigmatic energy? I believe it is our birthright to feel this alive and to live as optimally as we can as a species, with love and joy in our hearts in honesty and compassion for everything living. Could I physically be metamorphosing into a younger version of myself? could my body and spirit from this Organic raw Vegan diet I have been on for over 2 years now, combined with some of the most powerful Superfoods on Earth be the possible reason that Energetically,spiritually and physically I have changed so radically. It goes deeper than just a molecular structure that could have shifted. The answer is Yes !! I have entered a new realm of consciousness that is virtuous,and raw. And where have you been all my life? It makes me wonder why I ever wasted my time drinking alcohol,achieving a fake sense of well being and happiness. The truth is I needed to experience the dark side in order to fully comprehend the light.Parallel universes so close yet so far apart.My experiences so far have surpassed my human expectations. Next stop,Transylvania. Above and beyond, and who knows where this will take me.

Ghost in the night

A bit of magic,a smile in the distance.My eyes,she sees the sunrise of barefoot wandering and sun gazing,she fly's....

A magnetic energy he was to her, somehow flickering yet invincible.
a ghost in the night..A medicinal mushroom or two. A positive light.

Angels sing and dance in the moonlight,she reaches new realms of higher consciousness.

A vision of hope this ghost, a peacemaker. A lover. Forever changed her world.

Big pond

Immersed into the colossal pond of ultimate dreams and broken ones....Dreams that I have for my life and for the dreams I have for other lives.Besides my intentions of planting fruit trees around the world in impoverished countries,spreading the ancient healing secrets and knowledge I have learnt with Raw and living foods/superfoods and how they have impacted my life on a daily basis.I have a huge desire to follow a lifelong dream of being involved in films that send out powerful messages. To laugh or to cry? or purely entertain them. It's in my blood and Things are moving swiftly. It's time to have some fun and enjoy this sometime painfully slow process of acting. Waiting.... waiting.'Hurry up and wait' is what my ears become accustomed to. I constantly want to be one step ahead of myself. I know I need to acknowledge the cracks in this road that take me to where I'm going. This journey for me, is to practice being in the moment, to be present and to pause and smell those roses. Stars flickering, eyes glistening as I pass one poster after the next. One in particular, The'Green Zone'stares me in the face as I sit on my friends balcony overlooking downtown La. I visualize my name next to Matt Damon's sweet angelic face. I have been hiding out in Venice with the Beatnicks and Buddhists alike.I'm incredibly fond of this area,from running on Santa Monica's beaches,to catching some raw vegan deliciousness to the yoga Venice has to offer. I realize that it takes a lot to get me to go 'into town' as I like to call it.Traffic is just a nightmare from this end to lollipop land.I made the mission a few nights ago where I had dinner at the newly opened members club, Soho House, which is a spectacular penthouse with a 360 degree view of LA that is just outlandishly cool. Last week I was at the Universal Studios lot,(it was really quite interesting to see the sets up close and personal),especially the Jaws set,that movie scarred me for life and part of the reason why I don't surf to this day. I was there to sign with Hg entertainment and have a new manager, Erik Heintz on my side.Things are looking up.....

Eccentric talents.

People close to me know that my friends are my world. The word friend is derived from the the Indo-European root meaning 'To Love' and that I do. From travelling all over the world for the last 13 years, I feel incredibly blessed to have these special people pocketed all over the globe from all walks of life.Mostly artists,creatives,eccentric beings.In London One eccentric being has skills beyond his own imagination. His name is Adam Holtrop and his eye is better than most.In london Recently he captured me in some images that are provocative and pushing the envelope.I love his style and thought process. check out his photography it's more than beautiful. www.adamholtrop.com. HE is a budding talent in the world of stillness.Capturing love on film.

Blissed out at Exhale

'Razor sharp stillness' he said in his ever so calming voice, the sweat poured off my face as I felt this incredible Ecstasy.
My heart was at peace. I felt like I was home in this moment.I was present.Deep in every moment with every breath.His oxymoronic saying struck a few cords with me.Sometimes the most radical thoughts come to me when I am deep in my yoga practice.Sometimes it's what I'm having for dinner that evening,or the washing powder that I need to purchase on route home.I usually dedicate my practice to one or more people at one time.Yoga is my meditation when I cannot sit still.It is liberation when I feel caged.Sometimes we are complete contradictions as human creatures.I know I have been myself. There have been times where eating only organic food vegan food accompanied with bottles of wine and countless cigarettes was my oxymoron. Where lies the logic in that. Its the contradictions that make us human, slaves to what we feel might make us discern some sort of fluffy feeling. I guess it is all an illusionary window pane, staring back at us and only showing us that inner peace might not come from external fabricated rubbish that we put into our bodies,but the very stillness that we feel in those moments of pleasure when we are at union with our breath.

One of a kind

A little more than magical was my week in London.A huge contrast from the shores of Africa to the chilly, busy and eclectic streets of portobello.A Thespian friend of mine,and almost too famous face,we will just call him Frank,quite literally skipped from one coffee house to the next giggling like two children, frolicking in the London streets in between autographs of course,we lunched at Electric,One of London's trendiest spots.We drank tea at the Woseley,as you do and Apparently It takes almost three months to get a booking just to go there for tea!! In this case, Frank is loved and adored there (like he is to me but in a very different way)and no appointment is needed.This restaurant is truly an experience and a spectacular sight.It smelt of old school english glamour,I felt like I was underwater,at sea. I was that day with frank,as we talked and laughed incessantly.We shopped for carpets,bits and bobs,and amidst all the chaos that follows a saturday morning stroll through the streets, he picked out a purple scarf with woven edges, covered in little tea cups,which could almost be indicative of the amount of tea I drink.Either way it had Lima all over it.It reminds me of him.One of the kindest souls I have ever met, truly gracious in every way.At midnight we thought of smashing more Tea and this time at the Ritz.Tie-less was Frank and ruled by strict dress code,He had to choose from their selection.He never made a fuss and chose a Navy and white polka-dot tie, I will never forget it.I took on the regal rules of the place and tea'd it like the queen.Pinkie up and saucer on my lap,trying not to slurp,and with a straight face it was somewhat challenging.An innate sadness came over me when I left his presence that night. He has that infectious warmth and enigmatic energy that one cannot buy.I was filled with a whole lot more that day.I love you Frank, You have a place in my heart forever.....

Full Firing Cylinders

As I arrive into the smoke of the unknown,Portobello Road London to be exact. I feel readily armed to face the chaos, in my head and through reality attracting my truth and all that is important. I'm about to embark on a whirlwind path of adventure. London being my first porthole. My second leg of my world tour and this time on route to USA after firing a brief stint in Pommy land for a year with mushy peas and pigeon friends..so here I am, firing all full cylinders.I am going into the madness as armed as I can be.I believe we are all where we need to be right now in this moment,not necessarily where we want to be. 24 hours ago I was running barefoot on crunchy African sand, with the sun kissing my face, a dream to stay, a dream to fly. Today I'm 3,500 kilometers away from that beach. I feel a different type of freshness, as I feel the chill down my spine,perhaps it's the uncertainty coupled with the ever exciting revelations that are to present themselves to me.I smile as I slip into my brown suede fluffy Ugs,ready to brace the glorious winter wonderland outside this bubble of fun that I found myself in on this 20th day of January. An endless stream of possibilities just waiting for me to grab them!