Butterfly

It's 3am and I'm getting ready for my morning meditation at my yoga centre, my ego tells me to stay in bed, yet I know my heart wants me to go and experience the joy of these ambrosial hours.If you told me a year ago I would be waking up to meditate at 3 am, I would have burst into hysterical laughter, followed by a reassurance you that u seriously needed to have your psychic abilities re tuned! I know now, that I feel totally blessed for my life because of this meditative practice and a clarity and creativity that is incomprehensible is filtering through my brainwaves which has inspired me immensely as an artist to create the dreams I yearn for.........Dreams to travel to far away lands and sow the seeds of a world of art behind me as a result while healing others has always been a desire to fulfill. I experience and express myself through my art in whatever form and  Kundalini yoga has been a funnel for that energy. 

It's a beautiful thing when things align in your life,and abundance flows.I have been through phenomenal highs and equally as intense lows and finally I feel like there is peace and serenity in my life, to just allow and breathe in the moment of truth of being totally present, that is where I strive to be...... We don't need to struggle like we think we do in order to achieve, most thoughts are just an illusion, especially ones coming from a place of ego, or materialism. I struggled with my head for a long time, and now after months of intense meditation, I am getting ready to share this knowledge with the world,with you. 

Like a butterfly we sometimes need to retreat for a while and grow in our cocoons and let time allow for that allowing and revel in the patience with the knowing that a butterfly is about to be born. 

Gone too soon......

I am filled with sadness right now as I write to you, my dear friend.The sombre setting of the grey clouds on this easter sunday lay above you. It happened in a blink of an eye,all to fast for us to fathom.You left your physical body behind and have illuminated us with your strong spirit that will not be easily forgotten. I can only imagine that right now you are in a peace that you could not find here one earth.You showed me light that was covered in dust. you showed me kindness that rarely exists.Even though you could not see your greatness, U are one of the purest souls I ever met and I watched you fight your battle,day by day,hour by hour. I saw your beautiful daughters face today as I poured sand over your casket. She watched in confusion of your sudden disappearance and innocently asked when it was time for her to go to dance class.She will no doubt grow up to be the strong woman I remember you to be. You were too young to leave us,gone too soon. I am filled with gratitude to have spent your last days with you on this planet Earth. My heart is with your family and I pray that you now rest in peace.
I love you forever Nikki,
your friend
Lima
xxxxxx

virginal happiness

I sometimes believe that I should have been cancer instead of saggi? The way I retreat into my cave, dreaming,researching,studying subject matter that fascinates me and stimulates me,always seeking for the answers of the complex mind and heart, understanding the mind's of others, trying to make sense of this crazed maze, and finding out what truly matters when perspective is brought forward.With the global catastrophe happening right now and people close to me being diagnosed with cancer, I have an innate sadness that makes me feel helpless.My once monumental issues,quickly dissolve to dust.

I feel that human spirit and compassion and less self seeking will truly make a change to the world we are experiencing, and more now than ever before we can lend a hand to the souls that need our love,  a selfless kind of loving compared to a self seeking kind of love you find in snagging the latest Louis Vuitton. NOw there is nothing wrong with retail therapy but I just think its unwarranted extravagance that we can do without. Living in a material world as we know it, one can get clouded very quickly. I don't feel that Cape town is any less pretentious than Hollywood......I am constantly surrounded by the idea of materialism and fame, and I wish to find truth in it all and not be a victim to the idea of  the happiness that all that would bring me. I have been recognizing that all those ideas could very well be the illusion of the mind and that coming into alignment with a higher consciousness and my own true vibration, would be the only way to virginal happiness and being inside my own vortex would allow me to fulfill the potential of truly being present for another human being.....

Grey Skies

As I sit at my favorite little coffee joint in Venice,Imogen Heap wafts through the ominous air of the Saturday greyness that exists beyond these doors of this eclectic artist hangout with ridiculously tasty treats.Today the weather is really affecting me. I seem to handle one or two days of greyness, especially if my boyfriend is around, otherwise it depresses me,which explains why London is not my favorite place to live. There seems to be a lot of sadness in Venice. I love people watching and as an actress I like to observe people's little idiosyncratic behaviors. I am fascinated by little actions and what motivates them. I was watching this guy bolt across the street yesterday as I sat in my car gearing up for my run along the Venice promenade. So there I was looking at him trying to find a tree, as he desperately needed to take a leak,or so I thought.I quickly realized it wasn't a leak he wanted and I saw him pull out a needle thinking he was incognito behind this tree,....there I was, virginal eyes on him as he filled his body with this euphoric and deadly substance.He went into a trance almost immediately as he started swaying like a willow tree and for that very moment he had found salvation from his painful, troubled life. An escape from his reality. I have heard you are in such a warm,fuzzy, peaceful place,when u take heroin. I am glad to have never experimented with that as it's a one way path to hell.  Just like the allegorical tale of the song Hotel California which is about his love affair with heroin, I choose to have a love affair with reality.No matter how hard real life appears to be sometimes,when you come off the artificial high,reality is always knocking on your door and sooner or later you will have to face it.....

Dreams come true....

wooosshhhhhhhooooooooooo.... that's exactly what I've been caught up in these past few months and my excuse for not writing. My hurricane of this thing called life. A life that is filled with so much juiciness  and excitement that I am a water vase spilled over with gratitude as I see the flowers blossom before my very own eyes.I know how lucky I am to be living the "American dream".There is so much suffering right now in the world and I feel incredibly blessed. I can't believe September is here to greet me and the Californian summer is almost over.I tried to cram some sunshine in yesterday before it dissipates completely and I'm finding this chair is not the most comfortable as my ass is burnt from too much sunlovin yesterday. How time has flown and so many things buzzing through the air. A new love in my life, which always seems to make one's world spin in many directions.Speaking of which my passionate love for acting is finally materializing into something very positive when recently I was signed by Untitled Entertainment and I know I am in incredible hands now. The rest is up to me.... stay tuned in for the developments in this arena.Due to the current climate, which has affected all of us,work seems to be scarce.So I'm beyond excited to get going and book my first film or TV series over here. That would be a dream come true. I believe that anything can happen to you if you truly believe that you are worthy of whatever it is that you desire. Own it. You create you're own destiny,no amount of Voodoo or Hocus Pocus will bring you happiness. Neither will a big bank balance or a fancy fucking car.You have all the power and the seed is planted with just one thought. A thought that you are truly grateful for what you have in your life in this very moment. The power of a positive thought brings your entire energy field into harmony as well as helping another takes you out of self absorbed bullshit.I'm a huge believer in a wholefood diet and tons of exercise,yoga being an absolute favorite,and I believe in my experience these two things are imperative in bringing one's spirit into equilibrium but no amount of wheatgrass or superfood can create that happiness. I do that on my own.
Peace and Love from San Clemente California. 

Alive

I am home...

A weekend at a tonic bar. Vincent Gallo serving up spiritual Speed Balls. A man named Truth, and delicious drinks of Dragons blood, Deer Antler and Holy basil alike. An incredible glowing angel, Bethanne, and A Chinese man on a vow of silence for 13 years serving me medicinal mushrooms and raw food fit for a queen. A week goes past and I continue my search for these potions that left me smiling and gleaming with an inexpressible inner peace, clarity of mind and a flow of energy or CHI that I haven't felt since I was... possibly 12 or since the days I used to swing from tree to tree in my garden of Eden in South Africa with flowers in my hair and not a care in the world! I feel like I am home here in La and on a mission to feel this elated always and share the love with other beings who want to enter this new realm of virtuous liberation. I need to pinch myself constantly as I ponder whether this is actually real? And reflect on the reflectively twinkling eyes and smiles that I see within this reality. Could this be my incredible life? Could I have found real truth and invincibility in potions and elixirs that create this enigmatic energy? I believe it is our birthright to feel this alive and to live as optimally as we can as a species, with love and joy in our hearts in honesty and compassion for everything living. Could I physically be metamorphosing into a younger version of myself? could my body and spirit from this Organic raw Vegan diet I have been on for over 2 years now, combined with some of the most powerful Superfoods on Earth be the possible reason that Energetically,spiritually and physically I have changed so radically. It goes deeper than just a molecular structure that could have shifted. The answer is Yes !! I have entered a new realm of consciousness that is virtuous,and raw. And where have you been all my life? It makes me wonder why I ever wasted my time drinking alcohol,achieving a fake sense of well being and happiness. The truth is I needed to experience the dark side in order to fully comprehend the light.Parallel universes so close yet so far apart.My experiences so far have surpassed my human expectations. Next stop,Transylvania. Above and beyond, and who knows where this will take me.

Ghost in the night

A bit of magic,a smile in the distance.My eyes,she sees the sunrise of barefoot wandering and sun gazing,she fly's....

A magnetic energy he was to her, somehow flickering yet invincible.
a ghost in the night..A medicinal mushroom or two. A positive light.

Angels sing and dance in the moonlight,she reaches new realms of higher consciousness.

A vision of hope this ghost, a peacemaker. A lover. Forever changed her world.

Big pond

Immersed into the colossal pond of ultimate dreams and broken ones....Dreams that I have for my life and for the dreams I have for other lives.Besides my intentions of planting fruit trees around the world in impoverished countries,spreading the ancient healing secrets and knowledge I have learnt with Raw and living foods/superfoods and how they have impacted my life on a daily basis.I have a huge desire to follow a lifelong dream of being involved in films that send out powerful messages. To laugh or to cry? or purely entertain them. It's in my blood and Things are moving swiftly. It's time to have some fun and enjoy this sometime painfully slow process of acting. Waiting.... waiting.'Hurry up and wait' is what my ears become accustomed to. I constantly want to be one step ahead of myself. I know I need to acknowledge the cracks in this road that take me to where I'm going. This journey for me, is to practice being in the moment, to be present and to pause and smell those roses. Stars flickering, eyes glistening as I pass one poster after the next. One in particular, The'Green Zone'stares me in the face as I sit on my friends balcony overlooking downtown La. I visualize my name next to Matt Damon's sweet angelic face. I have been hiding out in Venice with the Beatnicks and Buddhists alike.I'm incredibly fond of this area,from running on Santa Monica's beaches,to catching some raw vegan deliciousness to the yoga Venice has to offer. I realize that it takes a lot to get me to go 'into town' as I like to call it.Traffic is just a nightmare from this end to lollipop land.I made the mission a few nights ago where I had dinner at the newly opened members club, Soho House, which is a spectacular penthouse with a 360 degree view of LA that is just outlandishly cool. Last week I was at the Universal Studios lot,(it was really quite interesting to see the sets up close and personal),especially the Jaws set,that movie scarred me for life and part of the reason why I don't surf to this day. I was there to sign with Hg entertainment and have a new manager, Erik Heintz on my side.Things are looking up.....

Eccentric talents.

People close to me know that my friends are my world. The word friend is derived from the the Indo-European root meaning 'To Love' and that I do. From travelling all over the world for the last 13 years, I feel incredibly blessed to have these special people pocketed all over the globe from all walks of life.Mostly artists,creatives,eccentric beings.In London One eccentric being has skills beyond his own imagination. His name is Adam Holtrop and his eye is better than most.In london Recently he captured me in some images that are provocative and pushing the envelope.I love his style and thought process. check out his photography it's more than beautiful. www.adamholtrop.com. HE is a budding talent in the world of stillness.Capturing love on film.